i'm halie.
i have a lot of problems.
EDIT: but things are getting better.

When i first started this blog, in Feb 2011, I swore i would be completely anonymous. That was because i was losing weight the unhealthy way. The last few months, my entire out look on life in general has changed and i feel a new healthy, happy life is in order for myself, so slowly i may start posting before/after, more personal, maybe even photos and videos of myself :) but we will see, so stay tuned lovelies <3

many girls on here are maybe 120 pounds and they think they're fat lards. my GOAL is to weigh as little as that.

height: 5'7

HW: 234
SW: 191
CW: 186 184 182 181 179, 178 177 176 174 171 170 167 163 162 156150148 145 141 138

GW: 185, 180, 175, 170,160, 153, 147, 140. 135, 130, 125

UGW: 125
(or until i'm satisfied)


Triple Chocolate Chunk Muffin Knock-Offs of Whole Food’s 6 Dollar per 4 Chocolate Chunk VitaTop Muffins
1 3/4 c oats
 3 egg whites
 3/4 cup unsweetened cocoa
1/2 cup unsweetened applesauce
1 tsp. vanilla extract
1/2 cup plain Greek yogurt (or regular plain low fat yogurt)
1/2 tsp cream of tartar (or 1-1/2 Tbsp. vinegar)
1-1/2 tsp. baking powder
1-1/2 tsp. baking soda
1/4 tsp. salt
1 cup hot water
1 cup sugar substitute (like Splenda granular) OR 1/4 cup + 2 tbs stevia
1/2 cup semi-sweet chocolate chips (or use white chocolate or peanut butter chips!)
Preheat oven to 350 degrees. Line 2 (12-cup) muffin pans with foil cupcake liners, or spray muffin tin with non-stick cooking spray. Set aside.In a blender, (or food processor), mix all of the ingredients together, except for the chocolate chips. Blend until oats are ground and mixture is smooth.Place mixture in a bowl and gently stir in 1/2 of the chocolate chips (set the rest aside). Scoop mixture into prepared muffin pans.Place muffins tins in the oven for 10 minutes.  After 10 minutes, remove muffins from the oven (but don’t shut oven off), and distribute the other half of the chocolate chips on top of each muffin.Place  the muffins back into the oven and bake for an additional 2-5 minutes, or until a toothpick comes out clean. *Note, you could skip this step by putting all of the chips in the batter, and baking the muffins for 12-15 min straight, but this method gives the muffins the traditional ‘VitaTop Muffin’ look with the chocolate chips on top!Cool muffins before removing from pan. ENJOY!!! Servings: 12 Big Muffins or 24 Smaller MuffinsCalories: 116 Calories Per Muffin or 58 Calories Per Muffin 
Be Healthy, Be Happy♥: Being thin does not mean being happy.


Happiness is not defined by a low number on a scale. It’s not defined by the gap between your thighs, or how tiny your waist is. It will never be defined that way, and I’m sorry to say that but it’s silly to think so.

I’m just saying, it’s a waste of time to sit there and drool over how thin this…


(by Katherine Squier)
I can’t go back to yesterday because I was a different person then. ― Lewis Carroll, Alice in Wonderland (via beingahurricane)

(Source: theworldthroughmynikon, via wellholyhelldestiel)